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03 May 2012 @ 04:45 pm
Due South Ficlet for DS/C6D Tag  
Title: A Time to Every Purpose (temporary? title)
Fandom: due South
Characters/Pairing: Fraser and Kowalski, pre-slash
Rating: PG for the thematic elements
Length: 437
Warning: Angst
Author's Note: This was written for the DS/C6D tag event being run on LJ's ds_noticeboard and DW's duesouth. wihluta had to pass on the tag so mergatrude gets me instead for the prompt "seasons." The song referenced is Turn, Turn, Turn (to Everything There is a Season) by the Byrds. You can listen to it here on Youtube. It is based off of Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. You can read the King James (Cambridge ed.) version here. I'm not 100% satisfied with this piece. All the same, I'm considering turning this into a series based on all of the "times" listed in the verses, but I'm not sure if I can come up with something for every one of them. Still, let me know if there's interest, and I'll see what I can do. This fic can also be found on my DW.

Fraser stands in Ray’s apartment, his friend sitting mere feet from him for all it feels like miles. Ray’s face is covered by his hands, as it has been for the past twenty minutes. It is dark in the apartment; the sun has just about set, but neither of them has bothered to turn on the lights.

Finally, Ray breaks the silence. "I shot a kid." His voice is rough, as though he hasn’t used it in years, mournful and guilty, and Fraser feels his heart ache.

"He was a known felon," Fraser reminds him.

At that, Ray looks up. "He was sixteen."

"He was pointing a gun at you."

"You think that matters?" Ray explodes, jumping up from the couch.

"In the eyes of the law—"

"I’m not talking about the law here, Fraser! I’m talking about me," Ray shouts, fists clenching, and then, just like that, the brief show of anger is over, and he seems to deflate as he let out a rush of air. "He was just a kid, Frase. He was just a kid." And now, the tears are welling in his eyes.

"I know, Ray," Fraser says softly, reaching a hand out to rest on Ray’s shoulder, and before he knows quite what has happened, Ray is in his arms sobbing. Ray clings to him like a lifeline and Fraser holds him just as tightly back, selfishly glad that his friend is the one who is alive.

In that flash of a moment when the teenager raised his gun and pointed it at Ray, time had frozen for Fraser, and when he heard the gun go off, it seemed to take eons to register that it was the teen that had crumpled to the ground. In those eons, ice had settled in the pit of his stomach and fear had made him dizzy. In those eons, all he had thought of was Ray.

But he’s here now, safe in Fraser’s arms.

After several long minutes, Ray’s crying slows, and Fraser murmurs in his ear, "To every thing there is a season."

Ray huffs out a watery laugh. "I’m falling apart and you’re quoting golden oldies at me?"

"Actually, Ray, it’s from the Bible – Ecclesiastes. The Byrds merely—"


"Understood, Ray."

It was several minutes more before they let go.

Current Location: home, my room, bed
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: none
desireearmfeldt on May 3rd, 2012 09:29 pm (UTC)
A short, sweet scene. :)

I can't quite decide whether I find "to everything there is a season" comforting or strangely harsh, given that the context is an *untimely* death--I took it the way (I presume) it was meant on first reading, but then it started to disturb me... But I like the tension-breaking goofiness of the exchange that follows, and the intimacy of them doing it while still hugging. :)

Edited at 2012-05-03 09:29 pm (UTC)
Howie: F/Khow_obscure on May 3rd, 2012 09:46 pm (UTC)
Yeah, it was meant to be comforting. I was thinking of the "a time to kill" line and not "a time to die" so it was supposed to reflect more on Ray's position in things, but I actually wasn't too sure about putting the line that inspired the fic in the fic because more realistically, I could see it setting off Kowalski's temper again, but I could not get the silly little exchange out of my head so I put it in. Like I said, I'm not fully satisfied with this one. If I had had the time, I would have searched for a beta to help me figure out which way to take it, but you know, 24 hour challenge. *shrugs*

I'm glad you liked it anway. Thanks for the comment!
desireearmfeldt on May 3rd, 2012 09:58 pm (UTC)
Oh, interesting; I hadn't thought about the "kill" side of the quote.

Yeah, I sympathize with the authorial dilemma there -- I always have to squash my tendency to put in everything I think of (address every issue I think of), which just ends up with characters philosophizing at each other at tedious length. :) And it would be sad to lose the ending exchange...

If you decide to either revise this or expand it into a series, and want a beta for it, I'd be happy to oblige. :)

Edited at 2012-05-03 09:58 pm (UTC)
Howie: F/Khow_obscure on May 4th, 2012 12:06 am (UTC)
Thanks. I'll keep you in mind for the beta job. I just signed up for the Big Bang. I'm not sure yet if I'm doing a fic or art for it. If I'm doing fic, who knows when I would get around to writing this series, but I think I may give it a go whenever I get the chance. I've got someone on DW who said they would be interested in seeing more. So yeah, if I decide I'm definitely writing more, I'll drop you a line and see if you're still interested. :)
desireearmfeldt on May 4th, 2012 12:10 am (UTC)
Sounds good. :)

(Whee! Big Bang! Here's hoping I can figure a way out of my current plot dilemma soon, so I can get on with the writing... :) )
exbex: F/K 2exbex on May 4th, 2012 12:54 am (UTC)
The voices are excellent, and a series or continuation would be quite intriguing, though it also has a nice amount of strength as a stand-alone.
Howie: F/Khow_obscure on May 5th, 2012 02:21 am (UTC)
moduesermodueser on May 5th, 2012 04:36 am (UTC)
I'd like to read more!
Howie: F/Khow_obscure on May 6th, 2012 03:12 am (UTC)
No guarantees that I'm going to write more of this, but I'm glad to know people are interested. Thanks for reading!
ride_4ever (or Ride_Forever: seen it both ways): Benton & Sunglasses RayKride_4ever on May 6th, 2012 06:29 am (UTC)
Delicately angsty. Finely written in the constraints of 24 hour tag.
Howie: F/Khow_obscure on May 6th, 2012 09:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much. :)